My Response, "There is..."

such a fine line between life and death
right and wrong;
am I laughing or do I cry?

I want to let you know how incredibly glad I am that you responded. I figured you were online last night, but after seeing no response for a bit, I decided bed was a good idea. I started out by going to those addresses you suggested, but what I saw was not what I expected.

The first picture made me laugh... at first, at least I think so. That was the one picture I had asked you to destroy... or cut me out of. I couldn't look at it for long though; a strange wave of emotion I could not quite put my finger on would wash over me, and my eyes would tear up. At the sametime, I knew I was laughing somehow, and it came out. After a few minutes, I checked the other pictures, and then returned to read the rest of your letter...

As I read, I felt a wave of burning rush over me, and I began to laugh/cry again. I'm not sure what it means.

Maybe, after all this time, maybe I'm free? Maybe I'm healed? Maybe whatever demon has been tormenting me has finally let loose its grip around my neck, and has fallen from my back where it has clinged for so long. Maybe. I don't know what it means, but I feel different; so maybe I am?

Your words are words of victory. They are our words, and you said them better than I could ever have. Adieu happens to be playing on iTunes as I write this, but iTunes was on random (though I had it in the CB section), so again... I can't believe in coincidence, either; you know that. Not after everything we've been through. No. But the reason for this all still haunts outside of my perception.

I don't guess I never stopped loving you. I couldn't have... I would have forgotten about you, but I didn't, and now I know that I do still care deeply for you. So be careful on your endeavors, wherever you're going, and I'll be waiting for your reply.

"My love for you burns deep inside me, so strong... embers of times we had. And now, here I stand, lost in a memory... I see your face, and smile."

Daniel `koa

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Thoughts On It All

you and I are wandering worlds
apart from each other, joined at the heart
-- Cosmic Dare (with a pretty pistol), The Seatbelts; CB_OST

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Would she be angry at me posting these letters on here? Probably, but I don't really think so. I am posting them up here for the world to see, or whatever world there is this time. I know I cannot hold this strange emotion in on my own, I need it to overflow, and this is the best way.

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