Searching

If there's every really anything that I can agree about myself, it's that I get bored easily. I get bored on games, on food, on people, on working, on sleeping, on playing, on being alone, on reading, on crafting, on art in general, on working out, on being lazy. I just get bored.

There are a lot of things that I want to talk about but I just don't know what to say about any of them. There are still a lot of questions I have for God, and for others, but I don't know how to word any of them.

I don't know who I am right now, because I can't manage to keep myself occupied with searching until I find that person.

Right now, I've got six of my closest friends Living at least an hour away from me. That's not bad, you say, but the closest one is too busy to keep in touch (you know who you are, haha), and the farthest one is doing his own thing. I take my time, and I go and look at the Bible, and I think about what God wants me to do, but all the same, I'm having trouble feeling God and hoping in the fact that He's really there and that I still have a chance, even after all I've done, and am still doing. All that being said, how easy is it to change the way you are over one simple feeling?

The Apostle Paul said, "The Holy Spirit spoke rightlyt hrough Isaiah the prophet to our fathers, saying, 'Go to this people and say: "Hearing you will hear, and shall not understand;
And seeing you will see, and not perceive;
For the hearts of this people have grown dull.
Their ears are hard of hearing,
And their eyes have closed,
Lest they should see with their eyes and hear with their ears,
Lest they should understand with their hearts and turn,
So that I should heal them."'"
He quoted Isaiah 6:9,10 as found in Acts 28:25-27... As much as I feel that is for others whom I know, I know it is for me as well...