Thursday, July 27, 2006

Up and Down

Be in constant guard and meditation. It's easy to fall asleep, but when you do, do not be upset, just pick it up again. --myspace blog

Ironic. I seem to know myself more than I could possibly guess at times. I know when I'm going to mess up, before it happens. I know that I'm going to be weak to the enemy. And here I say to those around me that they cannot let it bother them. Should it, though? If we... if I just ignore the fact that I slipped up, does that play to the enemy? Or does it make me strong in that I'm not dwelling on it, feeling guilty?


I wish that throughout the Bible, certain things would be addressed more clearly... Then again, I suppose if they were, would we really be in the same kind of religion we are in? In the freedom we have been granted, because everything is so... gray? *sigh* I'm hurt, and I continually pull of the scabs.

1 comment:

penny said...

my apologies, darling- you might be my only constant understanding through all the years. You know me better than people who've been in my company for so long, and we're still yet to meet face to face! Thank you for all your kind words, you know I appreciate you!